Hi, friend. Welcome to my baby.
...is that a little cliché of me to say?
I hope so. I think after all this time, I deserve a few clichés - and not to get ahead of myself, but so do you. The good clichés, of course, because I know for a fact you're real tired of the bad ones.
Now that the ice is semi-broken (don't worry, we'll be chipping away at that a whole lot more), hi! My name is Amber.
To sum up who I am and what I do as short as possible: I'm here for your abundance, recovery, and your magnificent self-development. Oh, and your success, because let's face it, that's the dreamiest part of it all. That's a lot though, isn't it? You're feeling a little overwhelmed by now. You're wondering how you'll get there. You're wondering if you'll get there.
I wrote this blog specifically with you in mind and what you need to become a better woman.
Because that's what you want and that's why you're here! We're on the same page, and believe it or not, that's the hardest part.
You've already achieved the hardest part of this thing. The wanting to be better.
I had a hard time wanting to be better, too. And sometimes, I still do! We're not going to be perfect, ethereal beings incapable of bad days, and that's one of the more important things you'll need to realize before we go on this journey together.
Don't get me wrong - you will evolve in ways you didn't know you were capable of. However, you will also learn to stop the suffering before it consumes you. You will stop yourself from needing reassurance from people that don't love you because you will begin to understand that who you are and what you do and the intentions you set for yourself are good enough.
My life before embracing my inner fire wasn't the best, but it was a learning experience that got me where I am today.
- was in an abusive relationship for upwards of four years
- moved across the country and lived in isolation because of said relationship
- had an eating disorder where I only ate 700 calories a day max (I worked 500 of that off every day)
- lost myself in depression
- experienced not one, not two, but three chronic illnesses all at once (still something I deal with today!)
So, without tooting my own horn, I've been through a lot of... stuff. One of the grittier foundations and not something I really wanted for myself.
Maybe you're wondering how I kept going after all that because maybe you're going through something similar.
- gave up trying to please everybody
- chose to take care of my body
- started to take care of my mind (no one's going to do that for you)
- sifted through a lot of pain and self-loathing
- found a few things I liked about myself and built upon them like my life depended on it
Since doing so, I have...
- learned how to forgive myself
- cultivated a body I'm proud of
- upped the standards of the men I was choosing
- learned the difference between healthy love and toxic love
- learned how to talk to myself in a way that is understanding and not needlessly critical
- tried to use all this for good because what else can I do?
I want to put this out there that going through all of this did not necessarily make me a good person right off the bat.
There were days where I felt like the worst and even acted like it... But recovery starts with a choice. Not just one, but several. You will need to make that choice every. single. day.
And you need to make that choice as soon as possible, over and over again.
Let me reiterate this: over and over again.
Your pain doesn't have to dictate everything about you. You can choose to master it and live a life that's whole. You deserve that.
I wasn't perfect going through this transformation. Simmering in negativity is honestly easier than what it takes to come back from it.
Not for us, though. And that's why you're here.
See you around?